The Call

I love the fact in Christian circles the desire to serve is a call by God, for his purposes and will. The mear fact you get to do this stuff is the cool part and even cooler is the fact that He called you to it.

I have been spending a bit of time over the last few weeks at what I've been called to do by God, not really looked at the why part as the why is not as important as the call. My calling to Mercy ships is one that can only be explained by the fact that I'm trusting in the Lord to provide and teach me through this time.

I have signed on here for 6 months which in itself is not a long time in the plan of things and yet here in 6 months a lot can happen. In the last 5 weeks I have learned that God will put me where I'm needed and teach me in all things that I need. To be more people focused is not a bad thing as I have to live with the people I work work with, a degree of respect is given far greater than I would normally give and I find that we are all part of this plan.

I am called to be here and here is where I am, I have felt a range of emotions while being here from being extremely confused to being sad at missing friends and family at home. There are even times when I have to step back and take a second look at what I'm doing.

I desire to serve and honor God in all that I do and say, my actions are plain to see, my words can cut down to the bone or lift someone up. My motivation is not found in what can I gain from a given situation but from what can I lose to try.

So in my quest to understand why God has desired to send to Mercy ships I have found that God wants me to extend my time with this group, this is more than what I expected to find. The only way I'm going to be able to do this is if God provides the finances as this will mean another 3 months of crew fees to be paid.

I say all of this so you know this is my desire - to be used by God is all I do